Do you ever feel like something is coming?
Something bigger, better, like your life is supposed to be something better,
maybe that something better is coming and you dont even know it.
i've always wanted to be better than normal.
i dont want to be normal.
but what is better, really?
money? fame? recognition?
no. better is to be happy with what im doing.
i want to be interesting. i want to have substance.
i want to feel creative again.
sometimes i feel like i'm not any of those.
i always feel like i am none of those.
sometimes, like tonight when im alone in my room
with no one else around but my thoughts
i get this feeling
a weird, anxious,
OH MY GOD I JUST WANT TO RIP MY HAIR OUT
AND STOMP MY FOOT UNTIL IT COMES
feeling.
I don't know how else to describe it.
Whatever, whoever, wherever you are
can you just come out of hiding now?
i'm ready.
