It's 4:15 in the morning as I start writing this post. I did come home at 1:30am, only to head back out again because my friends were insisting I stay out as long as possible on my last night in Vegas. This city... it never stops. Literally. It's so hard to not get caught up in Las Vegas. The nightlife, the people, everything. Everything is a never ending party.
Here I sit, at 4:15 in the morning, praying that I will be able to wake myself up tomorrow for my flight to Dallas. It's times like these that I love my friends and hate them at the same time.
I go back and forth with the thought of staying here after graduation. I can't decide. I assume that if the impossible were to happen - the impossible being I meet the love of my life, the dream of all dreams, the one that I can spend forever with - I would stay here. But I don't think that is going to happen. There are too many distractions. No one is in Las Vegas for the right reasons. Maybe I'm attracted to the wrong guys? I'm not sure. I do know that I'm not going to settle, not anymore. It's a good feeling.
But, at the same time... very unsettling. Oye.
Tomorrow (well, today) is flight day. Also unsettling. Anxiety is already setting in. No deep sleep for me tonight.
Love you pumpkins, tell your friends.
xoxo
